I am too engrossed with earning Income In order to secure the needs of the family. I rushed to obtain insurance coverage for at least 3 firms and invest in securities to at least secure the future of my family. I struggled to increased my savings in my back accounts. I overburdened myself of acquiring properties in installment basis. I had taken up these challenges overzealous in the interest of my family and their future. But deep inside me, I know these are superficial. I had this realization a year ago when I Joined a lawyers training.
We had this training at least twice a year as part of our Mandatory Continuing Learning Program. One topic is about Legal Ethics which the organizers brought in a speaker from Manila and this guy a lawyer-turned charismatic speaker challenged us lawyers to reevaluate our goals. He begin with a weird question of: What drives you? He begin with telling us his life story as he has once being preoccupied with too much power. He began using his powers( authorities) to escape minor traffic violations and realized he could do much more.
Then events turned out different from what he wants a case was of magnitude of importance was assigned to him while being at the office of Ombudsman. Suddenly, someone approached him offered him millions of pesos Just to weaken/ dismiss a case he Is handling. He went home look at his family and with so much reflection, he decided that to receive it Is not the right thing to do In his life. He went firmly by saying to himself “l am not goanna feed my family with money from an illegal source or corruption”. He quit his challenging Job at the Ombudsman and found his ay challenging us.
He went further In the said seminar by challenging us to have goals more than ourselves or beyond our existence. He said In example that he pitied the great basketball legend Allen Iverson when in an televised interview Iverson said that basketball is his life and without playing basketball he is lame and useless. Iverson made this statement when no more teams in the National Basketball Association is picking him after years of being considered as one of the best star player. The speaker said that if our goals are like what Allen Iverson had then we would end Ewing peeled. Admit it. My hesitation comes with my fear that to put the gear higher or to admit my true desire of having a higher infinite goal would initially be harmful. I guess finding my higher goal would force me to give up humanly happiness. And, I am not ready yet. The hard part of accepting my higher goal is really hard. I would be honest to accept that I don’t know how to start or simply I am caught right now in between. My family concerns and needs, humanly as its seems, are being addressed but my search for the higher goal is still vague.
There are things though that are easy for me to accept and maybe I can build on this: a. I am striving hard to be a good citizen. I started to correct my tax liabilities not really that accurate but I am going in that direction (this aside from fear of Com. Henries). I am making my small voice heard in my inner circle and friends regarding my views on governance and particularly corruption; b. I have strengthen my participation to my children’s concerns aside from the usual provision of funds. I tried hard to be in their school activities and attend school orgasm if my schedule permits. . I have to led by example in my employment. I don’t take advantage of the authorities provided me. My company issued vehicle is mostly limited to company related activities. I strive hard to be an inspiration to my colleagues and dealt away intrigues as a way be promoted. Obviously, to shift to a higher goal is difficult and long-winding. Its literally rising higher to a more infinite and long-lasting. I am doing share and I hope in a short time I would be able to find it- my higher goal, and I would be rising higher.